At A & E they were so kind. I didn't really want kind, I wanted them to shout "time waster" "idiot" "attention seeker" But the nurse was gentle and took the time to talk to me. He listened and said I didn't need to say sorry - but I did need to apologise, over and over again. Then he scared me witless by declaring that he thought I had cut through a tendon. OMG I nearly threw up when he said that. He said it needed stitching, but he was reluctant to do it, as I really needed to see the plastic surgeon. At that point I could have sunk through the floor - I really didn't mean to waste anyone's time - certainly not specialists, dealing with people with real and genuine injuries. The unit is over an hour away - I just couldn't do it. So I had to self discharge against medical advice. I feel so bad. He was so kind and thorough, and I rejected his kindness.
So here I sit. Bandaged. Damaged. Lost.
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